The Fear of Going Back to College When You Have Major Depressive Disorder

Posted on January 7, 2017

This story was originally published on The Mighty, a digital health community created to empower and connect people facing health challenges and disabilities.

By Awa Lamare

First, I had to get my teaching certificate, which I got in May/June. After that, I started doing the applications for China, which were pretty long. A few companies contacted me, which didn't really work out, but I continued to apply. This fall, around October, I heard from the company I am going to be working for, and later this week, I leave. I can't believe it!

I have learned things don't always fall on the timeline you want them to. I really wanted to start graduate school, but there were so many steps and things I needed to take care of first. Sometimes, I get discouraged and ask myself why would I even want to try when it won't happen the way I thought it would happen. However, then something good happens, and I understand.

My advice to others who think they can't do it or that nothing will change is to continue to take each breath. The possibility exists in the fact that things are constantly changing and that things are different, even if you can't see it yourself. So, take that one step. If you're like me, then it's into a program like the Fountain House's College Re-Entry Program or you can just ask someone for help.

Whatever it is, take that one step. Go and just give it a chance. Change won't happen overnight, and you'll still have moments where you ask, "What am I doing?" In time, you'll start to slowly see things change.

Look at me. I'm going to China!

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